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Interests: SFSU '14 Class: 3RD YEAR. My one unique talent is Cantonese Opera. I ♥ Music. Pursuing to be a Nurse Practitioner. Pleased to meet you.
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|Isn't it simply amazing how fast time goes by? Yesterday, a friend of mine helped me realize that the kids who were high school Freshmen during my Senior year are currently high school Seniors today. Has it really been three years since I was in high school? I guess time has no time to stop. |
When I think back to the events that happened three years ago, it seems more like a blur to me. I have to literally go on Facebook (thank goodness for Facebook, I guess) and look at my tagged pictures from three years ago and beyond to remember what had happened in my life. It's amazing to see how much I've changed physically and how different I was then. But, it's also a little saddening. There's so much of my past that I want to relive again. So much, that I wish that I can go back and have time stop there for as long as I want it to. It makes me sad to realize that my youth is slowly degrading year by year, month after month, day by day, hour after hour, minute by minute, every second, and so on..
But the beauty of life isn't about staying young and living in the past. Ever heard of the quote: "growing old is mandatory - growing up is optional?" We all grow up and live our own lives till the very end. Life will always run like that, whether we like it or not. What makes life beautiful is how you grow up. Our lives are full of experiences that make up the person we are today, not the person we become in the future. People, including myself, tend to live in the past or focus on the future so much, that we don't realize how much we're missing out on what is going on right now. We live our lives like we we're constantly missing the good old days or we're waiting for the next big thing to come up. So... When will you have time for yourself today?
Growing up isn't about being able to drive a car or making enough money to buy your own house. In my opinion, it's the time that you allow yourself to grow into the person you are today. Your life experiences are what makes you who you are, and it is up to you to decide how you want them to guide the rest of your life. This is why I believe in living life to its fullest because you will never know when it may get cut short. We have to learn to treat our lives like it's the greatest gift that you have ever been given, because how can you grow up and experience things if you were never born in the first place? Through all of the pain and the toughness that life may bring upon you, learn to smile through it every day. Simply live happy and live in your moment.
|As a child, I used to draw....... A lot.|
Recently, I began cleaning my messy room once again and I came across a folder where I kept all of my drawings done when I was a kid. One of my favorite characters that I liked to draw was Sailor Moon. It was definitely hard to draw when I was young, but I continued to teach myself how to draw them, focusing on every detail given. I would literally spend an entire day drawing Sailor Moon and the other characters, and coloring them with precision.
I've always loved arts and crafts, no matter how old I got. Not to brag, but almost every arts project I have done in the past, my teachers kept them for future class examples. I guess I get this trait from my mom, who's very artsy as well. I've always focused on creating something unique and different from all of the other kids around me. I wanted to stand out, so I usually spend more hours on my arts projects than most kids at my school would. Even for one of my college arts projects, I was assigned to make an invitation card, and I ended up spending over 8 hours making it from scratch. I didn't sleep that night, haha. I never finish with mediocre work because I want to present myself as a hard worker who takes the time and effort to focus on details and precision.
Drawing and other arts activities have always been my way of presenting who I am and keeping myself relaxed. I've always found myself in a tranquil state of mind whenever I am concentrating on making every detail look perfect. Nothing makes me happier than seeing the finished product as great quality work done all by myself. Being happy is all that matters and I realized that I need to return back to my good old drawing days, and start creating something new again.
Find an activity that makes you truly happy and relaxed. When your day is low and you can't seem to put yourself back in order, pick up what you love doing best and make the most out of it. It will definitely turn your day right side up.
|Negative build-up of emotions, feelings, and thoughts can definitely take a toll on a person's body. It is especially damaging when you have no outlet to allow these negative feelings and thoughts to leave. We all have had our sad moments, whether you had an argument with someone, lost a life, or made a big mistake. It's simply impossible to avoid these unfortunate events in our lives. But then, I've realized that I've forgotten one essential aspect of life:|
It's amazing how one smile can make someone feel better. There was a time when I was having a really, really bad day, and all I could think of was my own personal flaws, and why I can't have what others do have. I was driving home, and on my side window, a lady waved at me with a big smile on her face. Seeing her smile confused me at first, but then my entire body literally felt like it was being given a burst of happiness and positivity. It was the best feeling I had ever felt on that day.
I've realized that being blinded by negativity only causes pain, sadness, and regret. Dwelling in your darkest moments takes you a million steps backwards from experiencing a happy and fulfilled life. We forget to smile and we forget to think about the positive aspects that have occurred and will occur in our lives. It is so important to give yourself that burst of happy energy every single day, no matter what situation you may be in, because without it, you will never be able to break that negative circle that revolves around you.
Never forget to smile. Besides, "the sexiest curve on your body is your smile."
|Hello Hello. |
It's not surprising how life is full of twists and turns. I've been going through a lot since the Spring semester started. But, these events are surprisingly very happy events. A lot of new friends, new memories, and new feelings. I've gotten all A's this semester compared to the Fall. And even though I didn't get into the nursing program at my school, I'm still pretty happy and content with my life. Still, I'll admit that things have been kind of rocky.
Yesterday, a random stranger tried to read my feelings through my gestures and my eyes. He said that I was a beautiful girl with a lot of insecurities. Externally, I feel like I disagree because (one) I'm fat, haha, and (two) life has been treating me pretty darn well lately. But within my feelings, I do feel that the things I want are out of my league and if I try to strive for them, it'll just be pointless. There are a lot of things that I want that I feel are unachievable.
Sometimes, I wish I could just look into my future to see what outcomes lie ahead for me. I've been having feelings that have been driving me insane, and I just want to let them go. I'm always afraid to see things go the way I don't want them to. It's a neverending cycle of unpredictable and disheartening events that never seem to unfavor me. Most of the time, it's because of the timing. The things that I want occur at the wrong time. Maybe it's because I am too busy for my current self. I am always focusing on my future and preparing myself to become fully independent, but I never find the energy to do the crazy things I want to do now, like to fall in love again. Although time may not be on my hands, I have told myself plenty of times that I will make time for whatever it is that I want when it is right. I just want to make sure that the next door I plan to open is the one I truly want to go through. But like I said, it sucks when you don't have a time machine to travel into the future.Well, I'll let this rollar coaster ride begin and see where it all ends when the time comes.
|I used to hate being single.|
I used to think that I needed to be in a relationship with someone to feel like I have fulfilled my life. Well, look where that naive-ness brought me. Being in love feels great, but it doesn't when you know that you're not with the right person. Like I said in my last blog, I'm only turning 20 soon. It's not a big number. And there's so much life to go though. No matter how long it will take, I'll find Mr. Right some day. But for now, I'm actually going to enjoy being single.
"Good things come along when you least expect it."